Posts Tagged ‘patience’

“The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.”

Matthew 13:44

This verse shows the correct response of someone who understands God’s crazy relentless love for us. I will admit I wasn’t a huge fan of this chapter. The majority of the chapter is Francis Chan describing a list of lukewarm Christians. The list goes on and on. So was my frustration because the chapters drags on too long or because I saw myself in this list? I definitely know I’m not the perfect Christian. The chapter gives some valid points on how lukewarm Christians can be a distraction to those who want to sincerely follow Jesus. I have the same frustrations with Pastors and churches that are more concerned with numbers and preaching a “seeker friendly” message to attract viewers or with Christians whose faith is just for show. Jesus spoke in parables to weed out those who weren’t interested in the truth of the gospel (not because He didn’t care about them).

I think for me, I don’t want to just be living for God out of conviction or to live up to a standard. I don’t want a desire to just be “good enough”. All I have to do is think back to when God rescued me and how patient He has been with me since then to know He loves me. I want to pursue God with my whole being and have all my actions flow out of a heart for Him. I know the only way to live this life for God (and not of one who is half-hearted) is to truly love Him. I pray everyday I am in awe of how great and how good God is.

“We love because He first loved us”

1 John 4:49

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My situation with my ex-wife has been very interesting for me. We had some issues a couple of months ago. Unfortunately is made things messy between us again. I have really had a hard time decided on how to handle things with her this time around. I kind of gotten to a point that I’m tired of her always being on the offense against me. It can be very exhausting.
I know she knows nothing about who am I today. She knows nothing of what Christ has done in my life since our marriage. I would like her to know someday, but I just don’t trust her right now. And my kids have been through too much for this to keep on this way.They need us to be better.
I almost hired a lawyer with her recent actions. I had a consultation and really considered it. I was pretty upset. But then I prayed about it. I talked about it with some people I trust. Honestly, I didn’t feel it was Christ-like. So we decided to put our trust in a counselor for help. I really pushed for a Christian counselor. She then agreed.
I found a good counselor who was well-known in the valley. The sessions were so-so at first. I felt as though everything was against me. But I really kept praying and trusting God about this situation. Believe me, I have been falsely accused before. Its nothing new to me. But there is one thing I needed to work on that I kept praying for:


If there is one thing I struggle with, it is


And the one thing I’m learning very quickly is


I had a session today. I will tell you we are making progress. It’s a very slow process, but its going well. I really feel God has a handle on this. I have grown so much since this has all gone down. It’s been a major learning experience for me. I’m learning to trust God in these tough situations. He has blessed me so much. I want to be more Christ like in my decision-making.

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