Living a life that Matters

My summer with the kids is almost over and soon I will be readjusting to fall schedule. I’m excited for new opportunities and new adventures in life. Things are good right now with me. Yet I’m a little frustrated this week as well. It’s a cycle I occassionally go through. I’m approaching almost three years of being single. It’s funny because its not something I think much of because I’m pretty content with being single. I really think God wants me to be single at this point in my life.
Jesus and Paul were both amazing Christians and were both single through their ministries. Paul speaks of rejoicing in his singlehood in Corinthians. Being single has enabled me to do so much. But at times I do hit a lull. We were made for companionship. Whether it’s with close friends or with one person, I do miss it at times. I can get myself focused on ministry and God’s will in my life. I do very well with that. But there are times that God will bring someone amazing or something into my life that raises a little hope for me. My mind will wander and the questions of “what if..” start going through my head. Then reality and frustration sets in when is apparent that it’s probably not what God intended for me. Or at least not now..
So I pretty much just pick myself up and truck along life again. I’m pretty good about tuning things out and pretending that I’m ok. Then I realize I need to pray about my frustrations let God know how I feel. I’m good with not being on the dating scene.. I really am. But I think I just miss the enjoyment of being with someone that wants to spend time with me. Maybe I just need a fun sidekick … haha.
You know, I’m so blessed. I’ve stayed very faithful to God these past three years. And he’s doing awesome things in my life. I put my faith and trust in someone who knows me better than myself. I need to use this time to further grow in my walk with him. And his blessings will come with obedience.