Living a life that Matters

Last night I spoke with some guys about vision. This was about having a vision of what you Think God’s will in your life is. They were guys that had been through divorce. Some of them weren’t expecting to go through divorce. So I challenged them to embrace their newfound singlehood and think about living for Chirst. Usually most people going through divorce start looking for their next potential spouse. I’m not saying marriage is bad, just that there are so many oppotunities that you can embrace being single rather than being married.
So I’m laying in bed at around 4am. Not sure why I’m awake at that time. But I start asking myself the same question. What is my vision? I actually had a hard time defining that for myself. Ok.. I could say that I lead a God-led life. But I couldn’t pinpoint specifically what that looked like. Be a missionary? Christian counseling? Marriage again?
This verse popped in my head ‘Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart’ (Psalms 37:4) What are truly the desires of my heart? I want to serve God. But I can’t seem to break it down more than that. I desire companionship like anyone else. I would like to meet an amazing woman someday and experience life with her. When? I don’t know. I would like my kids to grow up to amazing men of God. How? These are the questions that went through my head. Then I fell asleep. I felt God tried to reach out to me during this time. I know I have a lot to pray about in this area. I know my spiritual gifts and what I enjoy. But I guess I need to map out my own vision of how I would like my life to play out and see if it fits in His plans.