Living a life that Matters

“All things work together for the good of those who love Christ.”  Romans 8:28

A weird night for me. But one of those nights that I needed. God revealed a lot to me tonight. It put a lot of my own self doubt to rest for now. It involves one thing that I time struggle with time to time. That is change.

I guess I can get a little comfortable with life. I’m a native of Arizona and I’m still here. Same job for 8 years. I’ve been at the same church for 10+ years. I do get bored with life sometimes. But life has forced changes on me and I’ve had to learn to adapt. My parents divorce, my divorce, health choices, etc.

As I look back at my life, I have had so many people in and out of my life. It’s crazy how many people I have known in my life. It’s crazy how many people I have had close relationships and intimate moments with people who are no longer in my life. Its been tough letting people go. And I’m so relational that its hard for me to let people go without closure.

But my real focus here is changes that I have seen in ministry. In my time at Cornerstone, I have seen so many come and go in that church. But most importantly I have seen God change so many lives there. I have seen new believers after a few years make that leap of faith and commit to full-time ministry. It’s awesome to see.

But as excited I am for them, it’s hard to lose those brothers and sisters in Christ. Having these people around has been so instrumental in my own personal growth. Yet I’m learning that all that matters is that we are all serving Christ, no matter where we are. God has a plan and he will bring in others to fill those gaps.

Since surrendering my life to Christ a couple of years ago, I really dived into ministry. And until this month, I have mostly been involved with pretty much the same ministries. After much prayer, I decided a little while back to change things up on my own. Starting in June, my life in ministry will look a little different. I’m pretty excited about it. I’ve spent the past few months just taking care of some of my own personal life. But now that is mostly behind me, I’m ready to dive back into what God has planned for me.

I just want to make sure this time around that I make time for family and friends. Somewhere in the past months I quit doing that. But I’m really learning that I need those good people in my life. I don’t where I would be without them. I want to make sure the boys are a priority as well again. I really regret losing focus on them recently. I guess its easy to get caught up with things.

Between Cornerstone and Praxis, I have some amazing opportunities ahead of me to grow in my faith. I have also came up with a schedule that will give me my time with my kids and still be able to serve and learn ministry. My only question mark is Bible college and where to fit that in if I get accepted. But I’m sure God will make that clear to me as long as I stay in prayer about it. I’m really looking forward to the summer months to relax, but at the same time take on some new challenges in my life.