Living a life that Matters

I’ve been very irritable lately. This has been going on for nearly 2 weeks. The crazy thing is that I’ve been on vacation for 2 weeks. Is being on vacation making me irritable? I don’t feel very refreshed. I can’t pinpoint what is wrong with me. I can’t sleep. I keep getting headaches. I wake up at around 3am and I feel so much is on my mind (in fact it is 2:45am right now).

I know I need to make my life more organized. I have stepped back in some of my ministries. It has been good. But I don’t feel organized at home. I can never find anything. I have been getting rid of ’stuff’ lately. I keep running across things I really don’t need. But I really don’t how to do this. It has been very stressful. I’ve enjoyed having the kids for spring break this week, yet I don’t get much accomplished when I have them for long periods of time either. They go back to school today. I will miss this time with them, but I also know I need time to myself.

I am noticing that I have become very short with people. I’m hearing this from others as well. My patience has recently run out. I have had little patience in leading my small groups. I have little patience when I drive. It’s not getting better. I’m at a point where I just want to be alone. I really don’t like this feeling.

I have one more week of vacation. I want to get to the bottom of this feeling. Only way I know how is to make this week about God. I don’t have too much going on, so I have no excuses in making time for Him. I’m hoping to find myself deep in the Word and deep in meditation. I need to relax and take things one at a time this week. I need to focus on Him.