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My whole being will exclaim,
“Who is like you, Lord?
You rescue the poor from those too strong for them,
the poor and needy from those who rob them.” – Psalms 35:10
A huge hotbed for child slavery is at Lake Volta in Ghana. The Volta reservoir is one of the largest made-made lakes in the world and where many children are forced into hard labor by the local fishermen there. Fishing is the main economy of many of the communities in the surrounding area. Children (as young as 5 years old) are usually deceived into long hours of very dangerous work with no pay. Many are subjected to intense violence from their “masters” if they don’t keep up with the work. They are either abducted by the fishermen or sold by their families to them for little money out of desperation because they are poor. Many are deceived because they are promised a good wage and meals upfront by the men who recruit them. The work is hard because the fishing nets get caught in the dead trees that are all over the lake. These children struggle to bring up the nets or they drown trying to free the nets from the trees. In the Lake Volta region, 1 in 3 children are labourers and more than 20,000 are considered in slavery today.
Prayer IS the work!
Organizations like IJM (International Justice Mission) seek to rescue these children out of slavery. They work in the communities and with the local authorities to detain and arrest the fishermen responsible for taking these children as slaves. They work with the local lawyers to prosecute these men. They provide a safe house for the children that are rescued so they can heal and rehabilitate and eventually be reconnected with their families.
Ways to pray:
- Pray for peace rehabilitation, healing, hope, strength, and good health for the rescued children of Ghana.
- Pray that God would lead the right people to apply for the positions available and that those doing the recruiting and hiring would bring the right people on board.
- Pray for the upcoming conferences that they would lead to changed hearts and repentance with the local fishermen.
- Pray for IJM and their offices on the lake. Pray for new satellite offices and their presence in the area. Pray that they reach out to regions where children are still trapped in slavery.
Continue to remember those in prison as if you were together with them in prison, and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering. – Hebrews 13:3
CNN Freedom Project recently did a documentary called “Troubled Waters” about the situation at Lake Volta. You can watch it below. (Note – I know there are other reporters out there that say not all the children that work on the lake are in slavery. The point of my post is to raise awareness to the situation and pray about it. Only God knows the details of the situation and will bring justice to where it is needed).
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“You’re a bad kid. I’m sick and tired of you.” These were the words of my father as he physically beat me.
“I don’t want to be with you anymore. You mean nothing to me. You’re not worth it” These were the words I heard from my ex-wife while in divorce proceedings.
“You will never do ministry again. You’re not cut out for this. I don’t ever want to see you here ever again”. These were the last words from a pastor who dismissed me from ministry.
These were words spoken to me from people who I dearly loved at one point in my life. These words not only hurt, but they shaped and molded my life. My lack of self-worth when meeting new people. My lack of confidence when going out for sports or starting a new job. My desire for admiration and attention from women. Or the pain of rejection I go through when a girl I ask out says no. My coping mechanism before I was a Christian was that I would become numb to people’s words. I got very good at tuning out undesirable people. It’s crazy how powerful our small little tongues can be. I’ll be honest, I feel I was more affected by the damaging words that I heard than any physical abuse I endured. Words are powerful and can damage. Proverbs 18:21 says the tongue contains the power of both life and death. If you are reading this, I know I’m not the only one who has been affected by someone’s hurtful words. And sadly, I know I’m not the only who lives in regret of the words I have said that have caused hurt to others.
For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks’ – Matthew 12:34
Jesus described our speech as words that reflect what is going on in our hearts. Jesus mentions this to us because we are his ambassadors to the world and our words are supposed to reflect him. When we are sinned against, we are to respond with self-sacrificing, redemptive love. But in order to love and serve others, we have to die to our old selves. Just think of how powerful a tool of change we can be in someone else’s life if we forgive them? Especially knowing that our sanctification process is a result of God’s grace and forgiveness for us. We should look at our problems with one another as opportunities to allow God to draw each of us into deeper fellowship with him. If we continue to live in broken, unreconciled relationships with one another, then God can’t use us to reconcile those relationships to him.
I am enjoying this series called I Declare War that we are doing in CSYP. The author gives some tips on how to win the battle of our words:
- You can alter how you feel through changing the way you speak – This was life-changing for me when I started thinking and speaking positively about people instead of engaging in gossip.
- You don’t have to say everything you feel like saying – this is a hard one for me because I like to process through communication with others and sometimes my thoughts or emotions can come out without thinking. But because we are image bearers of God, he gives us the choice of using words of encouragement or words of destruction.
- The words you speak over people can change the course of their lives.
Wow – how powerful is that last statement! Even though I remember many of the hurt words that have been told to me, I clearly remember the encouraging ones too. I remember going to a new church after leaving ministry and talking to the church counselor about my situation. His words were “I’m glad you are here and know we want you here”. He trained me to be a chaplain for the church where I got to speak encouraging words to others that were hurting. My Dad and I reconciled and he called me every night after my divorce to make sure I was ok. His encouraging words got me through a difficult period of my life. And the encouraging words of the community God has surrounded me with continue to get me through my everyday life.
One of my favorite books is War of Words by Paul David Tripp. He talks about committing your life to a life of repentance in order to change your words. It starts with examining your heart first (Psalms 139:23-24). Ask God to show the heart behind your words and to reveal where you may have spoken out of fear, frustration or anger. Seek his forgiveness and confess any sin you have committed to him (and others). And know that we are his ambassadors to the world and that our words were meant to be an agent of change in other people’s lives. I hope as we continue on with this series that we all DECLARE WAR on our words and speak life into the people that we encounter.
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. – Ephesians 4:29
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Anytime I go away for a few days and spend some time with God, Satan is waiting around the corner ready to derail my spiritual high with trials and temptations. After the All In Retreat, I was hit with all sorts of trials over a course of a week. I like to say I deal with anxiety and stress pretty well. But I know the war Satan wages in me is in my thoughts. I’m such a deep thinker that it can really take my focus off of God and my mind will go all over the place and look for quick fixes to ease those thoughts.
After spending a long night in prayer at a Hillsong worship event, I decided to fast for a few days to really focus on God and ask for peace and wisdom. I knew taking myself out of community would be difficult for me. I like to process my thoughts through communication with others. But I was thankful to see that our Young Professionals group was doing a three-day devotion on spiritual warfare during my fast. It gave me the opportunity to read comments of the warfare my community has been going through and relate them to my life.
Here are some key thoughts:
We are in a war. So many people today ignore conflict and unpleasant situations. Satan is real and he doesn’t go away. We live in a broken world. It doesn’t mean we walk around worried and stressed about what Satan is going to do next. It means we need to be prepared and ready for warfare. 2 Corinthians 2:11 tells us not to be ignorant of Satan’s ways of scheming. But be prepared by knowing your enemy and knowing who you are in Christ.
The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds
– 2 Corinthians 10:4
We cannot face Satan toe-to-toe on our own. But we can face him with the authority of the name of Christ. This devotion talked about how we need to meditate and pray in the name of Jesus as we face opposition. I took out some time to fast because I needed to be filled with the Spirit before I face my upcoming trials. We need that constant reminder that it is Christ who already died and overcame the world (John 16:33) that goes before us each and every day. So when we feel frustrated, we can rest in the Spirit of grace that is already inside of us and know that God is fighting our battles for us.
Currently in Young Professionals we are doing a series called I Declare War. We all have our battles within and we all react differently to them. It is time we stop being our own worst enemy and declare war on the devil’s tactics so we can be that person God intends us to be.
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I’m excited for my son Ty and his cousin Devyn to go up to Forest Home this year for summer camp. This place has always been special to me and I’m happy to see others in my family get to experience God like I did there. This will be Ty’s last week going as a high school student. Below are some photos from their fun week there.
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Last year, Pastor Erwin McManus wrote this book called The Last Arrow. After hearing him speak at Hillsong Phoenix about the book during a worship event, I read the book and was really blow away by the content of it. We decided to do a five week study on it in our Young Professionals group this month. Below are my notes from the lead-in sermons for the book that Erwin did at Mosaic church and a five-day devotional plan from Bible.com. Also included are some of the promotional material we created for the our upcoming series. Each week I’ll post my notes from each chapter.
THE LAST ARROW – ERWIN MCMANUS
(MY SERMON NOTES)
“The Journey of the Last Arrow begins when you raise the bar”
“We cannot grab hold of the future of we keep holding onto the past”
“The Last Arrow moves you past what God will do for you to what God will do through you”
What Did You Expect? (Pre-sermon) (9/17/17)
I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me.
Philippians 1:20-26
What is the journey we need to go on to become more?
Our dreams will disappoint us and we pull back so we won’t go through that again.
– Many of us tried hope and love and it didn’t work. It left us empty.
– Many of us have wounds from failure.
You are limiting the opportunities for the life God created you to live if you are not moving forward with expectation and hope.
– Paul expects to need courage because he knew his future was going to have hardship. Raise your expectations to what you expect. Too many of us have more expectations of life than of ourselves.
Those of us that expect life just to happen will naturally gravitate toward the lowest point of existence possible. You will move toward mediocrity. You need to make choices for life to happen.
Why trust Jesus if life is going to be hard? Because life is hard and full of challenges.
– You shouldn’t just expect great dreams but also that great pain will come with your life. Expect to need courage.
If you angry with God that your life is hard, ask yourself what did you expect?
– God sees pain as a temporary condition in your life.
We have more science on how to live longer, what we really need more of is how to live well.
To live is Christ, to die is gain. Paul is torn on what to choose – life or life.
People that are afraid to die are afraid because they have never lived. Expect to live.
God has another life for us on the other side of pain and suffering.
God placed you on this earth for intention and purpose.
– You can still have joy and happiness while living with intention. Happiness comes from a life that matters.
Too many of us live our lives conformed to the expectations of others. Break free.
At some point you have to stop saying “God, what about me?” and say to God “use me for the sake of others”.
Live life to your last breath saying, “I have no regrets. I gave it all”.
I’m Not Finished Yet (Pre-Sermon) (9/24/17)
Now the people of Judah approached Joshua at Gilgal, and Caleb son of Jephunneh the Kenizzite said to him, “You know what the Lord said to Moses the man of God at Kadesh Barnea about you and me. I was forty years old when Moses the servant of the Lord sent me from Kadesh Barnea to explore the land. And I brought him back a report according to my convictions, but my fellow Israelites who went up with me made the hearts of the people melt in fear. I, however, followed the Lord my God wholeheartedly. So on that day Moses swore to me, ‘The land on which your feet have walked will be your inheritance and that of your children forever, because you have followed the Lord my God wholeheartedly.’ “Now then, just as the Lord promised, he has kept me alive for forty-five years since the time he said this to Moses, while Israel moved about in the wilderness. So here I am today, eighty-five years old! I am still as strong today as the day Moses sent me out; I’m just as vigorous to go out to battle now as I was then. Now give me this hill country that the Lord promised me that day. You yourself heard then that the Anakites were there and their cities were large and fortified,but, the Lord helping me, I will drive them out just as he said.” Then Joshua blessed Caleb son of Jephunneh and gave him Hebron as his inheritance. So Hebron has belonged to Caleb son of Jephunneh the Kenizzite ever since, because he followed the Lord, the God of Israel, wholeheartedly. (Hebron used to be called Kiriath Arba after Arba, who was the greatest man among the Anakites.) Then the land had rest from war.
Joshua 4:6-15
Everything God started inside of you, he wants to finish through you. Many of us have deep regrets because of things left unfinished by us.
We say things like “if God wanted it to happed, it would have happened”, when in reality we quit.
Caleb never quit and finished well. Joshua blessed Caleb by giving him the land that was promised to him – a land that still had giants in it (v. 13). He blessed him by giving him another battle to step into. Caleb knew he wasn’t finished yet. God’s blessing doesn’t mean he gives us peace and rest.
We’re not finished yet.
They came back to Moses and Aaron and the whole Israelite community at Kadesh in the Desert of Paran. There they reported to them and to the whole assembly and showed them the fruit of the land. 27 They gave Moses this account: “We went into the land to which you sent us, and it does flow with milk and honey! Here is its fruit. 28 But the people who live there are powerful, and the cities are fortified and very large. We even saw descendants of Anak there. 29 The Amalekites live in the Negev; the Hittites, Jebusites and Amorites live in the hill country; and the Canaanites live near the sea and along the Jordan.” Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, “We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it.” But the men who had gone up with him said, “We can’t attack those people; they are stronger than we are.” 32 And they spread among the Israelites a bad report about the land they had explored. They said, “The land we explored devours those living in it. All the people we saw there are of great size. 33 We saw the Nephilim there (the descendants of Anak come from the Nephilim). We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them.”
Numbers 13:26-33
The Israelites were satisfied with just quitting and existing. God wants people that are willing to say, “I’m not finished yet”. Too many people show up to church and are satisfied with just sitting in the chairs.
What matters enough for you that it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks or says about you for you to take a stand in life? The Last Arrow isn’t about self-fulfillment. It’s about self-sacrifice for the needs and benefits of others. What matters more to you than your life?
Many of us love to step into opportunities that we think will give us a better future. Opportunities are big in the beginning and in the end, but skinny in the middle and that’s when most of us bail out (the part that requires discipline and perseverance).
Believe that your suffering and determination and your wounds are needed by God to accomplish his will. Imagine if Jesus didn’t go to the cross after his suffering in the garden? Jesus decided he wasn’t finished until it was finished (his final words on the cross).
God wants to use people that are willing to say, “I’m not finished yet”. You can retire from your job, but you can’t retire from your intention. If you are still breathing, you are not finished.
Let’s redefine what it means to get older. When you are young, you are stronger. But when you get old, you get wiser. You know how to believe, pray and sacrifice.
You don’t need to be younger, you just need to be alive. If you want to live a life without regret, then start now. Because if you don’t learn how to sacrifice when you are younger, you won’t do it when you are older. So stop talking about what your past was like and start talking about what your future is going to be.
Below is a 5-Day reading plan for the The Last Arrow from Bible.com
Day 1 of 5 • This day’s reading
Devotional
DON’T STOP UNTIL YOU ARE FINISHED
The concept of The Last Arrow came to me when I was reflecting on a story from the life of the prophet Elisha in the Hebrew Scriptures. In this story, Jehoash is the king of Israel in the midst of a massive war, and he seeks the wisdom and counsel of Elisha in how to win against the armies of Judah.
Elisha tells Jehoash to ‘get a bow and some arrows’ and then to ‘take the bow in [his] hands.’ After commanding Jehoash to shoot one of the arrows out of the east-facing window, he declares that Jehoash will have victory in battle. But then Elisha asks him to take the remaining arrows and ‘strike the ground.’
Jehoash strikes the ground three times before he stops and, quite unexpectedly, Elisha grows angry with him. ‘You should have struck the ground five or six times; then you would have defeated Aram and completely destroyed it. But now you will defeat it only three times.’ And that is where the story ends.
Jehoash began with the promise of a complete victory and afterward found himself the recipient of much less. And it all centers around one decision: he struck the ground three times and then stopped. To put it another way, he quit. For Elisha, Jehoash striking the arrow was connected to his ability to receive the full measure of God’s intention for him, and when he quit the victory was lost.
It makes me wonder how many times in my own life I thought I failed, but actually the only thing that happened was that I quit. When you come to the end of your life, will you be able to say, “I gave everything I had,” or will you have a hollow feeling inside of your soul that you quit too soon, that you expected too little, that you did not strike the last arrow? Make the commitment to not stop before you are finished, because you are truly stopping before God is finished.
Are there areas in your life where you too easily give up? Can you identify patterns in your past where you thought you failed when you actually quit? What makes you want to be a person who lives their life fully alive and dies with their quiver empty?
Day 2 of 5 • This day’s reading
Devotional
SET YOUR PAST ON FIRE
In 1977 my family’s home erupted in an electrical fire that consumed everything inside. While my mother lamented the loss of my brother’s trophies and promised him they could be fixed, I remember that my brother seemed strangely unmoved. The insight he left me with that day was that if those trophies are the highlights of our life, then our lives were not worth living, going forward. Why waste time and effort to reclaim the past when it would be much better for us to focus on creating the future?
There are things and even people that you will have to leave behind if you are going to keep moving forward – anyone and anything that would keep you trapped in the past and would rob from you the future God has for you. Jesus clearly imparted to all of His disciples: You cannot follow me into the future if you are holding on to your past.
Your past will be your future until you have the courage to create a new one. Take every memory that continues to wound you, take all of the pain, all of the regret, take all of the bitterness and disappointment, take all the moments of betrayal and every failure out of your heart and put them in the fire.
Keep in mind that this is not an invitation for destructive behavior; don’t burn relational bridges or operate under a scorched-earth strategy. Try to make sure you do the right thing in the right way; appreciate the past, but live in the present and for the future. The journey into our best future always passes through the furnace. The fire both forges us to who we must become and frees us to live the life for which we were created.
What has a negative hold on your life that you need to leave in your past to create your future? Identify three strongholds over your decisions, behaviors, and relationships that you need to ‘burn’ to move forward into the life Jesus is calling you to live.
Day 3 of 5 • This day’s reading
Devotional
ACT LIKE YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT
When Jesus’ disciples went to the tomb to look for his body, the angel who met them asked, “Why do you look for the living amongst the dead?” In general, we seem so confused about life and death and even more so about the ambivalent state of being that might best be described as existence.
Not long ago my wife Kim and I were in Beirut. We were preparing to go into Bekaá minutes from the border where ISIS was at war with the people of Lebanon. As we were about to jump in our cars we were asked to fill out a form. The forms’ heading read ‘Proof of Life.’ This was the first time in my life I was asked to prove I was alive. This caused me to reflect and ask myself, “What are the proofs of my life?” Is it the car I drive? My last name? My social security number? Could it be that those descriptors are not proof of life but simply proof of existence?
Most of us are not choosing between life and death; we are choosing between existence and death. We actually never choose to live. We are paralyzed by our fear of death and all its relatives such as failure, disappointment, and heartbreak and that fear leads us to trade life for existence.
Of this I am certain: whatever God has for you, whatever promises God longs to fulfill in your life, whatever riches may await you, you will only find them when you choose life over existence.
Regardless of your status or socio-economic background you must stop waiting for someone to make your life count. You must act. You need to act like your life depends on it. Whatever choices you make in life, no matter how much you accomplish, one thing is certain – all of our lives will end. The question still remains: will you choose to live or will you lie there until death takes you?
What are your proofs of life? What are those things in your life that make you come alive? In what ways have you settled for existing instead of living?
Day 4 of 5 • This day’s reading
Devotional
KNOW WHAT YOU WANT
There is a story in the life of Jesus that has always struck me as odd. Jesus was leaving Jericho and a large crowd began to follow him. In the midst of the commotion two blind men were sitting by the road. “Lord, Son of David, have mercy on us!” they cried out. The crowd rebuked them and told them to be quiet but they raised their voices even louder. “Lord, Son of David, have mercy on us!” Jesus stopped and called them. “What do you want me to do for you?” he asked. The men responded, “Lord, we want our sight.”
Usually when we read a story like this we are primarily struck by the outcome – it’s no small thing that at the end of that story Jesus gave the two blind men their sight. So the question Jesus asked often goes over looked.
When Jesus asks them “What do you want me to do for you?” he wasn’t asking because he didn’t know, but because he needed them to declare what they wanted God to do on their behalf.
The Psalms tell us that we are to delight ourselves in the Lord and he will give us the desires of our heart. This means we need to know our hearts, we need to know our desires, and we must allow those desires to be informed and then formed by our love and worship of God.
If you don’t know what you want, then God trying to give you what he wants is a wasted effort. You have to want what God wants in order to receive what God wants to give you. There are times in life when it is not within the scope of God’s intention for our life to give us certain things we ask for. But wouldn’t you rather err by asking for too much than too little?
What do you want from God? Is that a question you typically ask yourself? Is there anything you want that you’re afraid to ask for?
Day 5 of 5 • This day’s reading
Devotional
BE READY WHEN YOU GET THERE
At age 29 I had been the pastor of a tiny congregation in South Dallas, TX for six years. A huge faith-based event took place in Reunion Arena every year and I typically volunteered there as, essentially, an usher. Right before the event was scheduled to start, the executive director of the conference came to me and told me the main speaker couldn’t make it and that I would take his place. It took a lot of convincing from him to make me believe he wanted me to step onstage in front of 20,000 people in less than an hour.
That night I gave every ounce of passion within me, but it wasn’t because I was in front of thousands. It was the same intensity I gave every week to the 20 or 200 people who walked through the doors of my church. Afterward, the director told me that he had seen me preach in Spanish at my church without my knowledge – he didn’t know what I was saying, but he knew what was happening in the room and trusted me with a large moment because of that small one.
Remember that Jesus laid out this principle for us: it is the person who is faithful in the small things who will be entrusted with bigger things. So many of us are trying to get “there,” wherever “there” might be. But when we get there, we’re not ready for it. The great tragedy would be to live your life waiting for that moment to come instead of living your life preparing for when that moment comes.
What I have seen over a lifetime is that, from our perception, we wonder why God hasn’t given us the opportunities we long for, and from His perception, He wonders why we chose to be unprepared for the opportunities He placed right in front of us. You cannot know every challenge you will face, but you can know who you are when you face that challenge!
Are there areas in your life where you feel God has called you to prepare yourself for something larger? How has God rewarded your stewardship of small things with the trust of larger ones?
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As Easter approaches, I spent my day reflecting on today’s date – March 31. It was Easter day five years ago today. That morning was both an amazing and difficult day for me. It was the morning I got baptized and also the morning my Grandmother passed away.
My Grandmother Orahlie was a strong woman of faith. Many of you have heard Pastor Linn Winters tell the story on stage of how she was the single largest financial supporter of Cornerstone Church in its early days before it had a building. She was a traditionalist and wasn’t a huge fan of the current worship style with guitars and drums. But she also believed that the younger generation was the future of the church. She would say that if this new style of church gets them through the doors to hear the gospel, then she would support it. My fondest memories was of her sitting in her chair listening to gospel music. When I was asked to step down from ministry before her death, I was so ashamed to tell her that I avoided calling her for months. When I finally told her, she wasn’t phased by my failure and just told me to draw close to Jesus and that he would heal me of my brokenness. She also told me that she had been praying for me by name everyday of my life since I was born. That just blew my mind to know that someone had been actively praying for me my whole entire life. I am thankful I was able to give a part of her eulogy and read from her own personal Bible the day of her funeral. We were really close and a big part of who I am today is because of her strong faith and influence on me. I miss her.
A couple of months before, I had decided to get baptized on Easter morning. If you know me, you know a good portion of my life has been nothing but hard times and brokenness. After the trauma of going through divorce, I finally surrendered my life to God after many years of rebellion. God took my broken life and made something new and beautiful out of it. And it was time for me to declare that publicly to the world by baptism. I had asked my Uncle Joel (my Grandmother’s son) to baptize me. He is only a year older than me and has been like a brother to me growing up. He has always had a strong faith in God and has been a rock in my life. Even though we had just lost my Grandma earlier that morning, he was still willing to baptize me.
I’ll never forget the moment I stepped out onto that stage in front of my all my friends and family. David Gungor of The Brilliance (brother of Christian artist Michael Gungor) had just switched worship songs in his set as I was approaching the baptism pool. The new song he started was the song “Beautiful Things”. As I was walking and listening to the lyrics, I remember I started to weep over the words.
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us
It was an amazing reminder of how far I had come since making such a mess of my life. It was a reminder that God was healing me and putting me back together. And now I get to declare that publicly to the world on the day Christ rose from the dead. He loves us and makes us new and beautiful. I remember my Uncle Joel and I looking up after I came out of the water and knowing Grandma Orahlie was smiling down upon us. God is so good and I am thankful he put such an amazing woman of influence into my life to encourage my faith.
Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.” – Mark 8:34
I have been studying the life of Jesus and heard a message tonight taught from this verse. To be made new again, we must do these three things that Jesus teaches us in the book of Mark. Deny yourself (denying our fleshly desires), take up your cross (know that following Christ will involve suffering) and follow Jesus (not the ways of the world). In the original Greek, these steps are stated in the present, continuous tense. This strikes right at our heart’s desire to run our own lives. Jesus paid the price for our lives and has Lordship over us. As hard as this is, know that God uses our suffering and pain to draw us near to him. These lyrics are an expression of hope that God will make beautiful things out of the dust in our lives and that he will use us to build his Kingdom when we surrender to him.
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